So I've been thinking. I haven't been happy with my life in a long time. I also haven't changed much. So what little steps can I take to get myself into a more peaceful place in this world? Awhile ago, I decided that cable tv was wasting my time and money. So I dropped it, but it wasn't enough. Having moved twice in 4 months, my material life was a disaster. I still don't have it all together but I've made a HUGE dent and can only keep moving forward. Getting rid of things is hard. Especially for someone as nostalgic as myself. I am constantly telling myself that I need to get better at (insert menial task here.) I also have a list of projects that I need to get done longer than I can physically accomplish while still working full time and attempting a social life. So my next goal was to give up facebook.
I joined facebook on October 21st, 2004. I bet you didn't even know facebook was around back then. It was only for select colleges, and I hesitated for about a week, but then I logged in and never looked back. Until recently. One week from tomorrow would be my 9 year anniversary. I'd been thinking that my new years resolution could be to deactivate my facebook and walk away for a year. Then I thought that I would do it on my 9th anniversary, and reactivate my account on my 10 year anniversary in 2014.
Last night I deactivated my facebook. Sure, a little piece of me is sad. I won't get to see pictures and stories of my cousin's kids on the other side of the country. I won't share articles as a way to stay in touch with Aaron. I won't be able to organize craft nights with the girls as easily. I won't have my source of global news. On the other hand, I won't know when there are sporting events, I won't have other people's lives staring me in the face, I won't be able to judge people that I haven't seen in years, only to compare their successes to my own lack thereof. I want to spend more time alone. I know that sounds strange, but I really need to get away from people for awhile.
So this morning, I woke up and the first thing I thought was, "day 1, no facebook." Sad, right? But honestly when I had cable, I used to wake up and turn on the tv. TV was then replaced with facebook. Instead of being alone today, I went over to a friend's house and we crafted. I painted the onesie seen above, while my friend worked on a couple things for her daughter. I hope that in this space, I will document for my own purposes the things that I accomplish, the projects I complete, and the positive relationships that I nourish while I am away from facebook.
So if and when I ever go through facebook withdrawals, I need to remind myself that the friends who want me, will call or text or email. There are other ways to get in touch with people, and if people don't make the effort, they must not really be my friend. I am doing this for me. I am giving myself 374 days. The days go by so fast, but I cannot wait to see how my life will be different by then.
Will I...
be back in school?
be living in my current home?
still be single?
be vegan?
still smoke?
lose weight?
be more financially responsible?
be in a better place mentally?
I guess we'll have to take the journey and find out. Adventure Time! Come'on grab a friend!
